Saturday, September 7, 2019

Amarillo Sky

If you have read my previous posts, you know that I usually do extensive research for my posts. Well...
    This one is going to be a little different.😁 This post is going to be completely based on my own experiences and opinions. I want to talk about living without money. 

   I know it sounds crazy to some people, but it IS possible. Obviously, the way things are now, it is hard to live without at least a small amount of money, but do not have to be rich to live a happy life.

As a child, we always had a home and a vehicle. Never anything fancy, but it was shelter and a way to get from point A to point B. We always tell silly stories from when we were younger about how my friends and I used to tell my sister that a bucket full of water was a pool. As an adult, I do not remember everything from my childhood, but I do remember that I was a very happy child and I had a WONDERFUL childhood. It was not until adulthood that I found out my parents were not rich, by any means. 

When we are children, we just assume that if our parents buy us things they must be rich. 😂 In adulthood, we realize that is not the case. Quite often I hear people talking about how they will not help others if there is nothing in it for them. That always drives me crazy. But I suppose that is what most people think life is about these days.

So, I want to tell you about how my adult life has been since my kids were born and I have lived on my own...

Shortly after my daughter was born, her dad and I moved back to PA to live with my parents until we could afford to live on our own. A few months after our son was born, my now ex husbands mother bought us a house to live in. We moved in, he got a new job making a little more money than what he had been making, and we made sure our kids had shelter and we could get them from point A to point B. They were very young, so they did not ask for much, but we did the best to make sure they had what they needed. When our son was a little over a year old, we decided it was best that we separate and go back to being friends, while taking care of our two beautiful children together!

It still to this day can be very difficult raising our children together, separately, but we do the best we can. The kids and I moved out, and we eventually ended up in a low income based housing area. I was unable to hold a job because I was the sole physical provider for my children. We were on Welfare so I was able to buy food with our food stamps and get them medical attention with medical insurance from the state. We shopped for clothes at thrift stores with the money I received from their father as child support. Anything I could buy from the dollar stores I did. Luckily, I am creative so I was able to make a lot of the things I needed from inexpensive materials. 

Yes, I heard the whisperings and saw the faces when I went to the store on my own while the kids were with their dad, and pulled my WIC papers or food stamps out while dressed nicely and having my hair brushed and sometimes straightened or curled. It bothered me a little, but not having money does not mean you have to look dirty with torn up clothes and never have your hair nice. 

Now, I live in a beautiful house with the man I am dating, with my two children and his son. I went back to school for two years to receive an associates degree in psychology. I paid for it almost entirely with grants and scholarships. I will be getting a job soon but it will not change the way I think about money. Even if I get a job making a lot of money, I will still only use the money for things we NEED. Extra's can be nice, but I would rather save and take my kids to travel and let them experience the world, rather than buy everything we want. I will continue to help others and "sell" my crafts for free or for trade. I do everything I can to help others in need in any way I can. 

I know there are people who have a lot of money and can understand where I am coming from, and I know there are people without money that still wish they had more. There are so many ways to live without being rich. 

Jason Aldean - Amarillo Sky ... pay attention to the words :) 

Thursday, September 5, 2019

Too Much Food

Lately, I have been hearing from many friends, family, and even strangers, about the diet's and lifestyle changes they have made. I have done extensive research over the past few years on nutrition because I have been put into some situations that required me to change my food lifestyle. I even went as far as to take a nutrition class at my college. So, hearing my friends tell me they are choosing to go on the "Keto diet" or a "Gluten free diet" for whatever reason they have drives me up a wall. These diets may be good for some people, but they are definitely not good for everyone. I have to eat a gluten free diet because I have Celiac Disease, but if I tried to eat the Keto diet I would suffer from malnutrition, and if someone without Celiac Disease or a gluten intolerance tried to eat a gluten free diet, it would not necessarily be good for them. There is no ONE diet, fitness routine, lifestyle that would work for every one. Every BODY is different (inside and out).



Let's start with some useful information about NUTRITION.
  1. What is Nutrition? Nutrition is obtaining the nutrients needed for health and growth. There are many essential and non essential nutrients in the food we eat. The 6 most important nutrients, essential nutrients, are protein, carbohydrates, fats, vitamins, minerals, and water. Without these nutrients, our bodies cannot function properly. Non essential nutrients are still important to the body, but they are also produced by the body so we do not have to ingest as much unless our bodies are deficient. Cholesterol, vitamin K, and Vitamin D are just a few.
  2. What are nutrients? Nutrients are ingredients found in food that help our bodies grow, repair body tissue, and build new muscle.
  3. What is the difference between a dietitian and a nutritionist? A dietitian has gone to school, gone through an internship and received a certificate proving they know the truth about nutrition. A nutritionist is someone who has researched and found information (most likely online or in books) and is just knowledgeable on the subject.
  4. How do you know what is healthy for you? Always talk to your doctor or a dietitian before changing your diet/lifestyle, have your vitamin levels checked (if your doctor thinks it is necessary), take vitamin supplements if suggested by your doctor, read the label on your foods and pay attention to the ingredients in your food.

Below is a little information on how to read a food Label
 
Somewhere (usually just under the label) you will find a list of ingredients.
When reading the ingredients, keep in mind the first three ingredients are used in the highest quantity.

Below is the difference between a regular vegetable soup and a low sodium vegetable soup.
Notice the only difference in the label is the amount of sodium. This simply means most likely they did not put as much salt in the low sodium version of this soup.

Below are two ingredients lists
These LaraBars consist mostly of Date, Almonds, and Apples. There are no added sugars. These are a great source of Calcium and healthy for someone who is not allergic to any of the ingredients, 

The main ingredients in these Laffy Taffy candies are corn syrup, sugar, and palm oil. The other ingredients consist of some artificial flavors and dyes that are not very healthy for anyone.

It is important to research and know what it is you are looking for on the food label and ingredients list of the foods you purchase. This will look different for everyone based on the type of diet and food lifestyle they need.


Of course, there are a few general things that really are healthy for everyone. Here are just a few:
  1. Whole grains are much healthier than refined grains. Refined grains have been modified from their original state, and in the process of modification most, if not all, essential nutrients are eliminated from the grain.
  2.  Natural sugars are healthier than added sugars. A lot of times people see the word sugar on a food label and assume it is bad for them. However, if you look at the ingredients and find out where the sugar comes from, it may help you decide whether the sugars are bad to eat, or not. If the sugar comes from fruit, it is a good source of sugar. If it comes from cane sugar, it is best to eat it in very low quantities if at all.
  3. Exercise is important for everyone. An exercise routine will look different for each person. Some people prefer to take walk or jog each day, some are body builders that prefer to lift heavy weights, and some like an easy going cardio with a little lifting. Whatever the case may be, exercise is important for our bodies!!! This is something you should definitely discuss with a doctor before beginning, especially if you have any type of disability.
  4. Variety is key. While I love Steak and potatoes, and wish I could have them for dinner every night, that is not going to be nutritionally helpful to my body. Yes, it is healthy for me once in a while, but I cannot get all the essential nutrients I need from JUST steak and potatoes. It is important in everyone's diet, whether you are a super healthy eater or just eat whatever is available, that you eat a variety of foods and be sure you are getting 100% of your daily intake of essential nutrients.
  5. Sleep is important. Some people can sleep for a few hours and wake up well rested, while others need eight to ten hours to wake up feeling well. No matter how much sleep you need, it is important you get that sleep. Sleep gives our bodies the rest it needs to keep us moving. Not getting enough sleep can affect our bodies mentally and physically.

  It is important to talk to your doctor or dietitian about your food and exercise routine, but you cannot go by what they say alone. If you disagree with something you have been told, it is alright to ask for a second opinion from a different professional. It is also important to do your research on any type of diet or lifestyle you are told you should be on. YOU KNOW YOUR BODY BETTER THAN ANYONE ELSE! Something a lot of people worry about (especially doctors) is BMI. BMI is Body Mass Index and is a persons weight divided by their height. There is a chart (shown below) that decides if someone is underweight, normal weight, overweight, or obese based on these numbers.
According to this chart, I am overweight. According to my doctor, based on my height, weight, and muscle mass, I am a normal weight. Below are a couple pictures that show exactly why the BMI chart is very wrong and inaccurate.
All six of these women weight 154 pounds. The one on the left looks like she may be a little heavier than the others, and the one on the right looks skinny as a rail.


 These six women all weight 150 pounds. The woman on the right is over five inches shorter than the girl to her left, and according to the BMI chart would be considered overweight. Clearly, this woman is physically healthy and fit. Do not ever let anyone tell you that you are not a healthy weight just based off the BMI chart. 

  Everyone is born with different genetics. Some people are naturally skinnier than others. Some have bigger bones. Some are born with deformities or disabilities. Not everyone is supposed to look, eat, feel, or exercise the same. Do your research and remember to do what is best for YOUR body... not what is best for someone else!


   Here are a few links to get you started on your research: 10 Nutrition Facts  , 6 Essential Nutrients  , USDA  ,  20 Common sense Nutrition Facts


And of course 😁 the song ...  Too Much Food by Jason Mraz

Tuesday, July 23, 2019

Just The Way You Are

So a while back I posted about loving yourself (If I were you I'd wanna be me too). This post is going to be about something similar... but instead of talking about loving yourself, I am going to talk about letting other people love you! For those of you who know me, I have had a hard time with this, but I have become a lot better about it and I am still working very hard to figure it all out. So we can all learn to be loved together!! 😁


 I have come up with 15 things we can do to allow others to love us the way we deserve to be loved. Some of these are things I have already done and some I am still working on... But I truly hope those of you in need of being loved will read this and learn that it is ok to let others love you.

1. Fix the problems -- Stop running from your problems and find a way to fix them instead. It may not always be easy, but it IS always possible! If you're too busy running backward, how are you supposed to move forward?

2. Let go of the past -- There is no point in feeling guilty about your past if you cannot change it. Grab onto the future. Do what you can to make sure you don't make the same mistakes moving forward (one of those mistakes being not letting others love you 😉). No one should pay for their past forever. As long as you are feeling guilty about your past, you will never be able to let others in.

3. Stop procrastinating -- You know all those things you keep saying you want to do?... like go back to school, get a better job, talk to that girl from the coffee shop, see that movie everyone has been talking about... Stop talking about it and just DO IT. MOVE FORWARD. What's that saying ??? "Why put off til tomorrow what you can do today...". 

4. No more excuses -- You can do anything you want, if you just believe you can. Cliche, I know... but it is so true! If you are too busy making excuses, you will never do anything. It is time to start doing the things you need to do to ... that's right... MOVE FORWARD! 

5. Don't worry about what others think of you -- If you are so worried about what other people think of you, you won't give anyone the chance to show you what they think. Don't let others tell you that you deserve any less than the best. If someone makes you feel less than, they are not the one for you.

6. Appreciate things -- If you can't appreciate the beauty in others, how can you expect them to appreciate the beauty in you. Sometimes by seeing what you love in others, you can come to find the things others should love in you. 

7. Pay attention -- Pay attention to the way others treat you. If you allow others to treat you badly, you are showing others that it is ok to treat you that way. You deserve to be loved in a way that makes you happy. If you want to be loved, you need to show others that you are worthy of it and that you expect it.

8. Talk -- Share your thoughts and feelings with the people you care about. If you can't be honest about how you are feeling with others, you won't be able to let anyone in. Let people know how you are feeling and let them share their feelings with you also. 

9. Let them be there for you -- Sometimes you think you can handle things on your own, but you don't always have to. When you are going through a hard time, it is ok to allow people into your life to be there for you. 

10.  Ask for help -- Yes I know, it can be hard to accept help sometimes and to let our pride go so others can help... But if you are not allowing them to help you, they will begin to feel unneeded, unwanted and underappreciated. This does not mean you need to ask for help with every little thing, but if you are doing something that someone you care about can help with, ask. 

11.  Let go of your fears -- Stop allowing your fear of getting hurt keep you from being loved. Everyone feels hurt sometimes, but you have to move past it and allow yourself to feel loved again. Hurt doesn't mean dead... yes it sucks, but you will always make it through. If you are too busy being scared of the pain that might come, you will never allow yourself the things you deserve.

12. Let them see you at your worst -- This is the real you. No one is perfect... no one always has their hair nice, their nails done, fancy clothes, and a smile on their face. Let them see you when you are having a bad day, your hair is a mess, you're in a bad mood... Let them see the bad along with the good. They can't love the real you if you don't allow them to see it.

13. Accept their compliments -- If they are showing you love, don't devalue it... Appreciate the love you are being shown. When someone says to you "Your hair looks great today" Just say thank you! You are great. You are worthy of love... let others remind you once in a while.

14. Let them in -- Be honest. Share your secrets. Let people know who you really are. If you are hiding the real you and not allowing others to know you, how can they love you? I know it can be scary, but it really is ok to let people in.

15. Let them do nice things for you --  When someone really loves you, they try to find ways to show you how they feel. Let them do that. They just want to make you happy and show you that you deserve all the happiness life can give you. 

You don't have to change who you are to be loved... You just need to learn how to let others love you! 



Just The Way You Are by Bruno Mars says it all. Let people love you just the way you are. Don't change to be what you think others want... Just learn to be loved The Way You Are....😀

Sunday, July 21, 2019

U Can't Touch This

Food... As you all know from my previous post about "If I were you, I'd wanna be me too" I love food... but I also love my health. That is why when I was told I have Celiac Disease (especially after being told I have an allergy to rice) I was devastated!😫 Silly right?! Of course, at the time I did not think it was silly at all. My first reaction upon waking up from an endoscopy and being told "You have Celiac Disease," was "😭 But I'm allergic to rice!!! What the heck am I supposed to eat!??!.... No bread, no pies, no cakes ( I don't even like cake... but it was the point of the matter😂)". 
   The doctors were all very kind and found some information for me about eating gluten free with a rice allergy, but they left me with just that... "stop eating gluten" was my treatment for the disease. Boy was I in for a huge surprise! For those of you who struggle (or those of you that have embraced the disease as I am still in the process of working on) you know how much more difficult it is with Celiac than to simply "stop eating gluten". Then to add to the stress of barely having any options for food (unless you happen to live in an area that understands Celiac Disease), you have people who make fun because they think it is a joke, all the other foods you shouldn't eat because they will make you feel sick as well (especially dairy), and the frustration of having to spend A LOT more money than you did before you found out. 🙄 So I am here to help those of you with friends or family that have Celiac Disease, or those who just like to be educated on life, what it is REALLY like to live with Celiac Disease.

First I would like to begin by explaining what Celiac Disease actually is. Yes, it means you cannot eat gluten. That seems to be everyone's take on it for the most part. BUT WHY!?! A lot of people who do not have the disease (and even some who do) never really bother to ask why it is that not eating gluten is the treatment. This is where Celiac Disease, Non Celiac Gluten Sensitivity (NCGS), and Gluten allergies differ...A gluten sensitivity or allergy is just like any other allergy. It might make you sick to your stomach, give you hives, or make you throw up, but it is going to end there. It is very rarely causes any permanent damage to your body. Celiac Disease is an Autoimmune disease. This means your body mistakenly attacks and damages its own tissue. For someone with Celiac Disease, gluten is a trigger. When the gluten makes its way through the small intestine, the persons immune system thinks it is bad and will begin to attack the walls of the intestines. This can cause serious, and permanent, damage if it the disease is not diagnosed early enough or treated properly.

With Celiac Disease, unlike NCGS or a gluten allergy, you have to be eliminate gluten completely. Most people do not realize this means not only making sure none of the ingredients in your food contain gluten, but also making sure there is no cross contamination. That means if on the food label it says may contain traces of wheat, or any other gluten containing ingredient, you should not eat it. Some people even have to eliminate gluten in other products such as body wash, hand soap and lotions. This can be more difficult than people realize, especially when they live with others who do not have to eat gluten free. Some good ways to keep from accidentally cross contaminating yourself (or accidentally being "glutened" as some Celiac's call it) are to make sure everyone coming in contact with your food (to include yourself) washes their hands thoroughly, make sure the area you are preparing and cooking on is cleaned thoroughly, and make sure anyone coming in contact with your food is aware of your disease and understands how it affects you. If you are eating out, make sure the server and the chef are aware of your dietary restrictions. Fast food is not usually a good place for someone with Celiac, however there are a few chains that are Celiac friendly. A couple of my favorites are Chick-fil-a and Burgatory. You can look up online for Celiac friendly places near you, but do not forget that Gluten Free DOES NOT mean Celiac friendly.

That all being said, I would like to give those of you who do not have Celiac Disease, and those of you who have recently been diagnosed a little look at a day in the life of someone with Celiac Disease. 
    This morning I woke up with heartburn at 9am after not sleeping well at all. My first thought was food, because I know the heartburn was from lack of food. I went down to the kitchen and popped a couple Gluten Free (also rice free as I am allergic to rice) English Muffins into my toasters (toasters I bought to separate my foods from my family's because they do not have to eat gluten free). After they had been toasted, I put a dairy free and gluten free "butter" spread on my English muffins (because dairy is something else I have to try my best to avoid due to the Celiac Disease). We have a friend helping us remodel our kitchen (to keep cost down because God knows my disease is so expensive we have to save anywhere else we can!) so I spent the morning sealing all the cabinets and drawers to avoid any drywall dust from going into them, only to realize I could not cook anything until he was finished with the kitchen. Once I finished I left for my appointment. After my appointment, my boyfriend messaged to let me know that him and his son had already eaten (they had hot dogs because they can eat whatever they want 😅) So I said I would just grab something from Chick-fil-a on my way to get my kids and then head home. It was not until my sister called to ask if I could stop by, when I was half way to Chick-fil-a, and reminded me it is SUNDAY that I realized Chick-fil-a is closed today! 😓 So there I was, on my way to meet my sister and realizing I cannot buy anything to make at home because my kitchen is not able to be used right now, and the only fast food restaurant I can eat at is closed!!! So of course, I call my mom, because she always knows the best thing for me to do in a situation like this 😀 and she says see if they have any rotisserie chicken at Walmart. After meeting with my sister I head to Walmart and search for anything that is not boring to eat for lunch. I ended up with a rotisserie chicken... By the time I got home it was 2 o'clock in the afternoon, and I have barely eaten, which is not good for me because my metabolism is so fast I get sick if I do not eat enough. I sat down to eat my chicken (with my fingers because I forgot I do not have access to any of the silverware right now). It was very bland and boring. When I was finished I sat down to work on my final in my online nutrition class (I am working on my Associates in Psychology) and the entire time I am sitting at my computer all I can think about is food. I am ALWAYS hungry. Upon finishing my homework assignment I went to the kitchen and grabbed a gluten free fig bar. It is now almost 7pm and we have not even figured out what we are having for dinner, but there is a good chance we will be going out to eat... which means either gluten free pizza or Denny's.😩 

     Most meals I eat are meat, vegetables and potatoes. That is not too bad, but snacks are much more difficult. There are not a lot of options where I live for Celiac friendly snacks. Some days are worse than others. Sometimes I eat eggs and bacon for breakfast, quesadillas with corn tortillas for lunch, and steak with baked potatoes and asparagus for dinner. Other days I search the store and cannot find anything I want, and everything I crave is not Celiac friendly. Even the ice cream in the stores around where I live are not Celiac friendly (yes I have actually cried about not being able to eat ice cream anymore... as well as not being able to eat wheat bread). Having Celiac Disease can be a struggle, but I do the best I can to embrace it! There are a lot of people who do not understand it though, and that can make it very difficult at times. I have had people say things like "well can't you just take a cheat day" or they make fun of me for asking that the cooks change their gloves or bringing my own food to events outside of my home. I do my best to educate people who do not understand, which is why I am providing some information for those of you who would like to learn, or need to learn for yourself and for others.

Common Misconceptions
    1. Celiac Disease is not deadly -- WRONG!! While it is not common for someone to die from the disease, if it is not diagnosed early enough, or if it is diagnosed and the person chooses to continue eating gluten, it could result in intestinal lymphomas and other cancers which can lead to death. 
    2. Eating gluten free is just a fad -- Although some people believe that eating gluten free is a good way to lose weight, it is also a dietary necessity for some people. Whether it is Celiac Disease or NCGS it is a very serious thing. Eating gluten free if you do not have to can actually be bad for your health. You should always consult a doctor before changing your diet.
    3. Celiac Disease is just an allergy to wheat -- First of all, it is not an allergy, it is a disease (as stated in the name). Also, it is not JUST wheat. Gluten is commonly derived from wheat, barely, and rye, but can be found in many things such as beer, pasta, and graham crackers.
    4. Celiac Disease only affects your gut -- Celiac Disease may affect your small intestine more than anything else, but it can affect your whole body! It can make you very sick in so many ways. A few common ailments/symptoms are acid reflux, bloating, constipation, and fatigue. 
    5. Celiac Disease is rare -- It may not seem like a big number but about 1% of the population has been diagnosed. That does not mean only those people have it, it just means only those people have been diagnosed. To show how common this is, people compare it to the fact less than 2% of americans are redheads. That is how common it actually is.
    6. Life is not worth living with Celiac Disease -- I must admit this was one I struggled with. Not eating gluten anymore can be very difficult and frustrating, but there are ways to make it work!! If you have been diagnosed with Celiac Disease, it does not mean your life is over, it just means you need to make some changes to your lifestyle.😀

Helpful Information for people with Celiac Disease
    1. Find a good probiotic to take daily. I use GNC Probiotic Solutions Immune Support. You should talk to your GI doctor and do some research before choosing the probiotic that is right for you.
    2. Make sure you are getting the right amount of vitamins and minerals. If you are not getting enough vitamins and minerals from your food intake, talk to your daughter about multivitamins. 
    3. Educate yourself on Celiac Disease. The more you know, the easier it will be to keep yourself healthy!! This is a good link with a lot of information to help you learn about Celiac Disease.
    4. Having Celiac Disease is not eating JUST gluten free, most people with Celiac Disease also need to avoid other foods such as dairy and tomato sauces. 

If you have Celiac Disease, please check out the links that have been provided throughout this post. It may be frustrating, but it is not the end of the world.

   Ok, I know this song does not have anything to do with Celiac Disease, but it does go along with the NO CROSS CONTAMINATION.... haha I Can't Touch This (gluten).

Wednesday, August 29, 2018

If I was you, I'd wanna be me too

When I tell people that I eat healthy, I work out, I can't eat certain things, etc...... I always get told "but your so skinny.... You don't need to do all that!" 😮
( Before I go any farther, this is a long post. If you do not want to read the whole thing, please at least read the last 2 short paragraphs. It will make a huge difference in your day!!!! 😉)
Tell me please, how many of you are as fit, healthy, and skinny as I am without having to put any effort into it?! 😂😂😂😂 When I was younger I had an extremely fast metabolism (possibly due to hyperthyroidism). I ate whatever I wanted and never exercised and stayed under 110lbs until I got pregnant with my first child. I was asked by people if I was anorexic or bulimic, was constantly being told I needed to eat a hamburger, and actually had people throw things at me!!!! I was always being made fun of and torn down by my peers.🙄
Of course, my parents and other family members told me ALL THE TIME how beautiful and valuable I was and how much they loved me and how great I was!!!! 🥰 But I was young...... I wanted friends... I wanted the other kids my age to see what my family saw..... And when they didn't, I valued their opinion more than the people who loved me.
As most of you know, I'm not like that anymore. 😂 Now, I value my opinion of myself more than anyone else's opinion! Because my opinion of me is what matters most!!!
So tell me now, how many of you value your opinion over the opinion of any other person?! 🤨 I will tell you how many of you should....... ALL OF YOU!!! It does not matter your race, gender, skin tone, mental condition, who you love, how long your or short your hair is, how you wear your make up, what kind of clothes you wear..... You get the point right? 😉
Let me tell you what else matters over the way people see you ..... The way you treat others. Yes I know 🙄 it's super cliche, but it's what's on the inside that matters, not the outside!!!! Now don't get me wrong here.... You need to feel like you are attractive, I know. Everyone wants to look in the mirror and see a beautiful face and a beautiful body, but it ONLY matters if you think you are beautiful. It does not matter what you look like on the outside. If you are kind, and you treat others with a kind heart 😍 people will see your true beauty!!!
On the other hand 💁‍♀️, how many of you look at others and find yourself judging based on their looks, before you even know the person?! If any one of you just thought to yourself " I never do that" .. think again. WE ALL DO IT!!! I am one of the least judgmental people I know, and even I catch myself sometimes looking at someone and thinking "Why would someone walk out of the house looking like that!? " ..... Notice how I said I CATCH MYSELF. Everytime I realize I am doing that I say a little apology in my head. We need to be lifting each other up!! Not bringing each other down.
So, if you stuck with me this far ( yes I know ...I talk alot 😜) I would like to tell you why I am posting this today. I have met so many young girls and boys who have body positivity issues, and no one knows about it. So many people, people of all ages, have body positivity issues. Most of these people think they are the only ones! Can you even believe that?! 😯 I mean, how many of you just thought to yourselves while reading this " I wish I thought more highly of myself"??? I know I did haha. I'm more confident now than I was before, but I'm not 100% where I want to be yet. We are not alone! There are so many people that need to be reminded that they really are beautiful!
I am not talking about our friends and family. We tell them all the time! 😏But if you were paying attention to what I said earlier, you will see where I said " I never cared what my friends and family said..... " I always thought friends and family were obligated to tell you kind things lol ... I know now, that is not true. But how many others know that?!
I am going to ask you to do something. ☺️ ( and before you ask 😉 yes, I do this and I do my best to do it EVERYDAY) When you are out and about today..at school, church, work, taking a walk in the park, working out at the gym, shopping.. wherever you go today, and you find yourself looking at people and mentally judging them ( whether it's good or bad thoughts) find something beautiful about them ....maybe they have pretty hair, cute clothes, nice jewelry, awesome shoes, beautiful eyes ..... TELL THEM!!! Do not be scared. Simply walk up with a smile and kindly say " I just have to tell you, your outfit is so cute!!! " ( I have actually told a grown man he has beautiful eyelashes 😂😂 but the smile on his face was so worth it!!! ) Not only could you be helping that person feel better about themselves, but it will make you feel better about YOURSELF! And who knows..... Maybe one day someone will do the same for you!
For those of you who read this whole post, if you know what I am talking about, and you have a hard time with body positivity, comment below. Let's talk about it 😊 Let me help you find a way to love yourself so much that you will stop caring about what others think of you. AND .. HERE IS THE BEST PART!!!!! ITS FREE!!! 

Me Too by Meghan Trainor  This song is so good to remind yourself that you are beautiful!! SING IT, DANCE TO IT, REMEMBER IT !!

 And here is a little bonus video.. some fun dance moves by the Fitness Marshall to the song Me Too that I love to do as a quick fun workout!
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Wednesday, August 22, 2018

The B-I-B-L-E

I just spent over an hour in the chapel at the church praying and reading a devotional given to me by my great grandmother when I was a teenager. ☺️ It was beautiful!

Anyway, while I was there and reading, I was writing some things down to remember. The funny thing is, when Barb came in to take my place in the chapel, we got to talking, and I forgot everything I had written down! While we were talking about God, prayer, kids, life, and church, she said something that sparked a reminder in my head that I had not written down. She said "I think I need to be more in the Word" ( or something to that effect)

I went through the pages I had just read and found this ( from a devotional by Beth Moore, that her friend had written) "I heard my husband say recently that the Bible is God's thoughts to us." Then in the next page she says " It is not enough to go to church. One sermon on Sunday, no matter how good it is, will not supply you with the strength you need for every day of the week."

While reading this, it reminded me that while church is important, and learning from others is important... What is most important is the Word! God's Word is the most important thing we have to teach us how to be more like Jesus! I know I have forgotten many times how important it is to read his word every day.

So I just wanted to remind all of you now, if you have not been reading the Bible, or reading your devotions, or taking your 15 min of quiet time to just be with God and hear what he has to say to you .... Make sure you find the time ☺️ it's the best thing you can do for yourself today!



The B-I-B-L-E song Yes, I know this is a kids song!! But it still holds true for everyone 😊

Saturday, June 9, 2018

This Is Me

Loving Yourself


     If I had been asked this question ten years ago, the answer would have been "Forever". It had never occurred to me that I needed to love myself, let alone that I should. I must admit, I have always been a little different. When I was younger, I was always very skinny, because I had a very fast metabolism. I wore make up in a way others did not. My sense of fashion was never the trend. This caused me to be bullied in school, and made fun of, but it did not make me change who I was. One thing I have always known with 100% certainty, is that I am who I am meant to be. I never wanted to be bullied or made fun of, but I was raised never to lie, so I continued doing those things even though others put me down for it. While I had (and still have) and amazing, loving family, I listened too much to what others said to, or about me. It did not matter how many times I heard from my mother that I was beautiful and smart and funny, because for every one nice thing she said about me, I heard twice as many bad things from kids at school. I believe that when someone is told the same thing about themselves so many times by multiple people, they start to believe it, especially when they care what other people think. 
     By the time I was 16, I had started believing that I was ugly, stupid, and unworthy of living or being happy. I thought I did not deserve love, and that nothing good would ever happen in my life. I got into an abusive relationship, and thought it was what I deserved. When I finally decided I wanted to get out of the relationship and thought maybe I deserved better, he made it feel impossible. He threatened my family, and my life. After a year and a half of this relationship, he went to jail, and I got the opportunity to move to California (across the country from where I was living in Pennsylvania at the time). I thought that was my chance to start over. I thought maybe now I deserved better and I could find that in California. However, when I got to California, the thoughts I had of myself were still negative, making it difficult for me to find people that would treat me the way I wanted to be treated. 
     Not long after moving there, I met a man that gave me so much more than I ever thought I deserved. He was an amazing friend, and turned out to eventually become my husband. Even with how great he treated me, I still did not believe I was worthy of it. We had two children together before getting a separation. At the time, I thought the biggest problem we had was that we disagreed on lifestyles and how to raise the children. It was not until we had been separated for many years that I finally realized..... WE were not the problem. I was the problem.
     I was feeling unloved, but not because HE was not loving me...... It was because I was not loving me! Luckily, we were able to stay very close friends, which has been great for the two of us, AND for the kids. 😊 After we split up, I went through a series of relationships before finally taking some time for myself. I have now been in a great relationship for the past two years. We have our ups and downs like any other relationship, but we always push through. I have learned over the past 10 years that you do not need the acceptance of others to be able to love yourself! So, based on my own experiences, and a little help from some others, I have put together two lists to help you learn how to love yourself!

9 Things you should STOP doing, because they are keeping you from fully loving yourself:

1. Trying to please everyone around you.

You have to bring yourself to the realization that it is improbable that you will ever be able to make everyone in your life happy, no matter how hard you try. So many people (to include myself at times) will put so much time and effort into trying to make everyone around them happy, not realizing they are wearing themselves down in the process. That is not to say that you should never try to do things to make others happy, but you have to make sure that whatever you are doing is going to be what is best for you (and your family if you have one). Some people may see it as selfish, but you can do what is best for you, and still help others! You just have to find a happy medium.

2. Metathesiophobia 

The fear of change is a real phobia, that can be a real problem! As a young adult, when things in my life did not go the way I had planned them, I panicked. I would melt down, get angry, yell, cry, and my mind would tell me that everything in the world is wrong because one small thing was not the way it was planned. I was scared of change, and it was holding me back. I am not sure where in my life I got it stuck in my head that change was bad, but losing that phobia has made me realize how great change can really be. It is still difficult, but without the irrational fear in my head, it makes change so much easier to deal with. If you really think about it, most fears are irrational. Ask yourself, what are you afraid of? Think of all of the things you are scared of, and then ask yourself how many of those things SHOULD you be afraid of?  I think Will Smith explains why most fears are so irrational in this YouTube video on fear.... If this is something you struggle with, watch this video!  Will Smith on Fear 

3. Living in the past

This is something I struggled with for a very long time. Even now I have problems with it from time to time. Every morning (or evening depending on your schedule) when you wake up, you start a new day. Your body is the same, and you have the same heart and mind, and you have all the memories from your past, but, you are starting new. Do not let each day bleed into each other. No matter what happened the day before, you can make the new day a better day! There is an old saying, "Forgive and forget," but I believe it should be "Forgive and NEVER forget!" It takes so much energy to hate someone (that includes yourself), or to be angry about a situation (especially once the situation has resolved itself or passed by). So yes.... "forgive," or move on, or work past it, but rather than forgetting it after that, use it as a learning experience. Do not ever forget the things from your past, because one day you will realize that no matter how good or bad that thing, or person, was....it helped shape you into what you are today.

4. Putting yourself down

If you are anything like me, you know what it is like to have others constantly putting you down. With the amount of people that you will come into your life and try to make you feel like you are less than what you are, do you really need one more person (yourself) putting you down and making you feel bad just for being who you are?? ABSOLUTELY NOT! Self encouragement and self motivation are very important factors in learning how to love yourself! No matter what others say, no matter how many flaws someone else may point out in you, find the positive things about yourself. Remind yourself daily that you ARE worth it, instead of telling yourself that you are not.

5. Overthinking

How often do you find yourself in this situation: Someone calls and says "Hey, I really need to talk to you about something. Can we get together soon?" So you make a plan to get together in a couple days. They did not mention what it was they wanted to talk about, and now you are sitting there wondering what it could possibly be. It starts out small, but usually a bad scenario, then you start playing the "worst case scenario game" in your head (a game from the show This Is Us),  and by the time you get to the meeting, you have come up with every worst case scenario you can think of!  You walk inside nervous thinking this person is about to tell you the worst thing you could ever hear....... And they say something like "So I just found out I am pregnant, and I want you to be the God Parent!!??" .....😲  .... 😌 you let out a huge sigh of relief, and have a great meeting. 
    But you just spent two days sick to your stomach thinking the worst, when you did not need to. Everything is going to happen the way it is meant to happen, no matter how much you think or worry about it. So the next time you are sitting around overthinking a situation, remember that no matter how much you overthink it, the result will be the same.... and wouldn't it just be so much better if you spent that time being productive, instead of thinking about something that has not even happened yet?

6. Avoiding the silver lining

For every negative thing that happens in life, there is a positive outcome. It is inevitable that bad things are going to happen. It is just part of life. How do you usually respond to negative things happening?? Do you cry? Do you yell? Do you break down, and take out your frustration on everyone else????? I used to. Sometimes, I still do... But what if instead of getting upset, and focusing on the negative thing that happened, you sit down and think about the situation thoroughly. Think about the situation from every aspect, until you find the silver lining. Sometimes, it takes time to figure out what good thing came from a specific bad situation, but even if you sit and think about all of the bad things that have happened in the past, and then remember what good came from them, it will help you remember that although times can be tough, they will always turn out for the better. You just need to find the positive side of it.

7. Stop looking to others for validation

I think this one is pretty self explanatory. Think about how often you let the things other people say affect your mood, or sway your decision. Has that ever ended well for you? It is good to ask for advice sometimes, or seek out help for making decisions in certain situations, but you should not let everything that other people say affect the way you live. This is another area I have struggled with in the past. I believed most of what was said to me about myself, even though deep down I knew it was a lie. Too many times I let what others say make me feel bad about myself, and I ruined great days and great experiences by doing so. It was not until I realized that not everyone is saying things to upset me that I was able to stop letting things get to me. Sometimes the things people said to me that made me feel bad were just meant as silly jokes that I took literally. Sometimes they said things out of honesty and I could not see that it was just constructive criticism. Now, when someone says something that would have hurt my feelings or upset me in the past, I figure out why it was said, and use it to better myself. 

8. Stop waiting for "the right time"

I hear it all the time.... "I am just waiting for the right time to .....", or "It is just not the right time for me to be.....". When is the right time?? When you have more money? When you have kids? When you have a family? When you have a better job? When you have ....... the list goes on forever right?
    Have you ever read the book "If you give a mouse a cookie"? It is a children's book about a mouse that originally asks for a cookie, but once he has the cookie, he wants milk, and once he gets the milk, he wants something else, and so on and so forth until he has a list of things, but all he really wanted was the cookie. After going through the series of things he asks for, he goes back to wanting the cookie. If you are always waiting for the next best thing, and searching for something new before you ever get what you originally wanted, and make excuses for why you cannot achieve your goals, you will spend your life wanting.     If you want a cookie, just go get a cookie. 😉

9. Stop caring more about what is on the outside, than on the inside

The old saying goes "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder". As true as that is, one thing most people fail to realize is that beauty is not just about what is on the outside. Real, true beauty comes from within. It does not matter what clothes you wear, how you wear your hair, or what your physical features look like. The only thing that matters when it comes to beauty, is who you are on the inside. Some of the most physically attractive people look ugly if they are not kind to people, and people who may not be as physically attractive (as per societies standards), can be the most beautiful people in the world, just because they have a positive, happy personality. It does not matter who you are, regardless of what you look like, the one thing people are going to remember most about you is your personality. 


9 Things you should start doing to help you learn to love yourself fully:

1. Meditation

Reflection is a great way to find your strengths and weaknesses. I will admit one of my biggest weaknesses is my lack of concentration, so the first time I was ever told I should meditate, I thought  "there is no way I can do that! I will lose focus before I even start!", but I tried it anyway, and it was probably one of the best things I have ever done for myself. This is a great way to get a few minutes of quiet time in. It helps relax your mind and your body making you less anxious and stressed out. Some people are able to do this in a quiet place, in complete silence. I on the other hand, highly dislike complete silence! So I started a playlist on YouTube of some nice relaxing meditation videos. Some of them are videos that teach you how to meditate, some are quiet with a soft voice telling you where to go in your head, and some are just quiet music. If you would like to try it out, I suggest starting here

2. Me time

This one is very important. A lot of people do not realize how important it is to take some time to yourself! The amount of time, and how often, depends on how busy and hectic your life is. It can be as little as taking five minutes in the morning before the rest of the household gets up to sit and read a devotional, or as much as taking a weekend away to go exploring in a new city by yourself without any communications with the "real world". Sometimes finding the best way to spend your me time, or how often you should be doing this can be difficult, but you can always start small and work your way up until you find what works best for you. Most days I like to wake up before anyone else in the house and listen to music and have my breakfast alone. That may be the only quiet time I get during the day, but it starts my day out just right and ensures that I will start my day with a positive attitude.

3. Realize that NO ONE is perfect

Everyone has flaws. It is just part of being human. Material things are also flawed, even if they seem "perfect". So why is the word perfect even a word?? Well, while no one can be completely flawless, they can still be exactly the way they want to be, or, exactly the way someone else likes them. When someone says to you "You are perfect, just the way you are" they are not saying that you are flawless, they are saying that they love you for who you are, and they do not want you to change. No, you are not perfect, or completely flawless, but you are the best version of yourself. You do not have to stop there though. 😊 As I said, you are still not perfect. 
I used to ask the question, "If practice makes perfect, but there is no such thing as perfect, then why practice?" It took me a long time to come up with an answer to that one, but I think I finally found it! Although you can never reach actual perfection, you can ALWAYS be better. Striving for "perfection" will continue to bring you to even better versions of yourself, and it will keep you from going backwards in your life. 

4. Forgive yourself (but do not forget)

We all make mistakes sometimes. As I said above, no one is perfect. Sometimes you are going to do things that you should not do, you are going to hurt others (whether it is on purpose or by accident), you are going to do things that cause you to have other problems, and you are going to make mistakes. Yes, it sucks that making mistakes in real life is not like on paper, or on a computer. You cannot just erase it, or hit the undo button. You have just deal with it and move on. Some mistakes may be worse than others, but no matter how big or small the mistake is, you cannot hold on to it forever.
 Have you ever heard someone say "Forgive and forget"? Well, that is only half right. Forgiveness is important. Holding onto it can hurt you mentally and emotionally. It can put hatred in your heart, and make turn away from things you otherwise may not have turned away from. However, you should never forget! Whether you are forgiving yourself, or forgiving others, you should never forget what you are forgiving. Mistakes are the best way to learn, helping you get to the best version of yourself. You learn from them, and move on. 

5. Figure out who you are on your own

When was the last time someone asked "Who are you?". Have you ever really thought about that question, but in a sense of more than just your name? Most of us when asked who we are will respond with our name, and sometimes a title, such as a doctor, lawyer, or teacher. Is that really who you are though?? Look deep inside of you, and really think about WHO you really are. You may even find that looking at who you are makes you realize that you are not who you are supposed to be. If that is the case, start trying to figure out who you want to be, so you can work toward that!

6. Feel good about what is on the outside

It sounds a little contradicting of what I said in the list above, I know, but hear me out. How do you feel about your outside appearance? Do not ask someone else what they think, or look up online what society thinks..... Go take a look in the mirror (after you finishing reading this post of course 😉) and think about how YOU feel about your own outward appearance. Do you like the way you look? If so, GREAT! You are already ahead of the game. If you like the way you look without anyone else's opinion making you feel different, then you are already on the right track. However, if you look at yourself and think, "I wish my hair was different" or "I should really do something different with my makeup", then you need to make the decision to do what you need to do to like what you look like. Beauty comes from within, and no matter what you think about yourself, others will see it differently, but if you like the way you look on the outside, you will be much more confident and that will help others see you in a completely different light.

7. Use other's negativity against them

When someone tries to tell you that you are something you know you are not, instead of letting it get to you and upset you, push back. Show yourself that you are better than that. Do not do it to prove them wrong, do it to prove yourself right. Do not ever let anyone else have the satisfaction of thinking they were the reason you did something. If you can do it, and you can, then you had it in you from the beginning. Sometimes you just need a little push, and what better way to get that push than to make the decision to better yourself for the sake of trying to be the best version of you!

8. Keep positive company

Have you ever been in a situation where you are in a room full of people and everyone seems like they are being negative? They are all in a bad mood, or upset, or just generally not positive people. It makes you feel negative right? It puts you in a bad mood and makes you feel bad when there is nothing wrong. So why not do the opposite? Surround yourself with positivity, and you will feel positive. Other ways to stay positive without company are writing sticky notes with motivational quotes, or kind words for yourself and placing them around the house or in the car, to see as you go about your day to remind yourself that you are a good person. You can also start a thankfulness journal. Find a journal, and every morning before starting your day, write down all the things you are thankful for. This will help remind you of all the things you have that others may not, and be thankful that you are alive to experience these things. Also remember that happiness is not JUST a feeling, it is a choice. Choose Happy.

9. Be proud of you

You know that feeling you get in your heart when someone tells you they are proud of you? You can have that feeling any time you want! You just have to remember that you are doing the best you can, and be proud that you got out of bed this morning and chose to live! Even if you do nothing else, be proud of yourself for that. Do not wait for someone else to be proud of you, you can do that all on your own!

The first time someone asked me who I really am, not just my name, but the real me, I spent a decent amount of time thinking on it. This is what I came up with....
     I am brave, strong, independent, silly, funny, smart, proud... I am a mother, a student, a daughter, a friend, a significant other.... 
  I care too much, I love too much, and I give too much.... BUT, This is me.

 I think Keala Settle says it best in her song This Is Me when she say 
     "Look out cause here I come, And I'm marching on to the beat I drum.....
     I am brave, I am bruised, I am who I'm meant to be....
         THIS IS ME!"
Stop following the beat of everyone else's drum... and start marching to the beat of your own!

So I'll leave you with these few questions, and hopefully now you can truly answer them the way it should be answered, and use the answers to find a way to fully love yourself...... Who are you? Where do you rank in your list of loved ones? If you are not number one on your list, what do you need to do to get there?....